02.26.2016- Day 2

 Thursday the surgeon met with Meemaw but her bloodwork levels were off and they wanted to wait. I got a call that day from Shep's school. He was having a heart episode, his first since his heart surgery the previous summer, and the nurse said she needed to talk to me in private. So on the way to his school I called Meeamw and talked to her the whole time. We talked about Shep's ADHD and some of the emotional issues he has had and his heart. Then I got there, picked Shep up and took him back to work. Of course, I called Meemaw and talked to her about what the nurse said. She is worried about depression. With Shep it has been a concern for a few years but mostly a side effect of his heart meds and not something I have seen since surgery. He does have anxiety issues, which are also better, and the nurse was concerned about side effects of Shep's ADHD meds. Meemaw was a pediatric RN and so we discussed it and both felt it isn't his ADHD meds, talked about his heart (he was having lots of PVCs that day and they always make him feel off) and different concerns we have about Shep. That night I was going to go to Dallas and see her, but I didn't. The weather in DFW had been terrible. Snowing off and on for days. Shep was still feeling kind of off and I just didn't know about driving over there. Meemaw said don't drive over just stay with the kids. We all talked in the phone for a long while. Shep had written a letter to Meemaw that day asking her to get better. He read it to her. Madi talked to Meemaw about all sorts of stuff. Meemaw asked if I saw the braids she saw on her facebook page and I tried to explain news feeds to her. Lol. Sammy talked to Meemaw and said he was glad this didn't happen at our house (a few years before she had a mini stroke/heartattack at our house.) and they laughed about her rolling down our front yard that one time. She apologized for getting hurt and messing up Shep's Bday. I told her don't be silly. I asked if she was visiting the hospital bar because she was slurring her words. She laughed and said she knew she was slurry and had just asked for another drink. I told her I loved her and get rest for her surgery Friday. Knowing what I know now, I wish we would have gone to have those conversations in person. I had been around for most of Meemaw's medical visits/hospital stays and I wish I would have been there. Who knew...I really didn't think she would die from a broken femur. This stubborn women whose regular MD jokes and said "Juanita, I didn't think you would still be around" She lived through so much. Never in a million years did I think that phone call would be one of the last.