Mother's Day....

Yes, it is nearly 2am and I am still awake...yes, I have to get up in a few hours for work. You know how sometimes you start cleaning and can't stop until you feel good about a stopping point? That was me tonight. We got home from San Antonio around 4:30 and the kids were playing so I wanted to finish my book (Water for Elephants, which I loved) and ignore the unpacking and laundry to be done. So I did. My reading was interrupted by diaper changes and feedings, but I finished it. Then I had to leave at 8:20 to go pick up my Meemaw from the airport. Got home, put the kids to bed, spent a little time with Sammy,then the cleaning began. Washer, Dryer, Dishwasher...everything is running. I folded/hung a few loads and still have 1 in the washer and 1 inthe dryer! Then I had to make bottles and food for tomorrow. Get the school uniform ready and the clothes for football practice....all of a sudden it is 1:45.

Mother's Day was great. I got my 2 Tiffany necklaces from "my kids" and then today I got a cute little card and a starbucks giftcard. I must have been a really good mom this year! I am so thankful for my family. It is crazy to think I was so afraid of being a mom. When I was pregnant with Shep, I told Sammy that there was no way I was going to love a baby as much as I love my dogs. (I am kind of a crazy dog person, like insanely in love with my dogs) I was so unsure of what it meant for my future. I was excited about it but just had a lot of reservations. Then came by little man. It was a super long labor and I slept through the c-section due to pure exhaustion so meeting him was a blur. The next part I am telling because nobody told me about these feelings. I feel as moms, we should tell our friends about things that we are even a bit afraid to admit we thought. So when Shep was born, I didn't "fall in love" or feel an instant connection. Same with Madi. I was happy to see them and so thankful to have beautiful babies, but I thought it was going to be some sort of electrifiying connection. It wasn't there, so I thought something was wrong with me. And honestly, there was. I had major surgery both times. I was exhausted, hormonal, and on drugs. My love for them started growing from the moment I met them. I think it doubles everyday. I love them both in a way words cannot describe. I love being a mom and I am good at it. Even if I have to stay up until 2am to get the chores done :) Shep is my sunshine and Madi is my little angel.So on Mother's Day I am thankful for my amazing mom who raised my sister and myself as a single mom. She taught us the importance of God, work ethic, and most importantly raised us so we could be successful as we grew up. I am so blessed to have my grandmother in my life. She also helped raise my sister and myself. She lived with me for 15 months to take care of Shep when he was born and has lived with us the last 6.5 months taking care of Madi. What a wonderful opportunity my children have to be so close to their greatgrandma. I also have my aunts who played a big role in my life and helping mold me into the woman I am today. I also thank God for blessing me with my family. I have 2 wonderful and beautiful children. Life can be overwhelming, work can run a person down, and the laundry never ending, but I look at my children and am instantly calmed. I hope everyone had a wonderful day and now I am going to put this mother to bed!